When,
Oh when,
will you take this breath
as your very own,
to have and to hold 
from this day forward,
for better and for worse?

As your sleeping, lazy eye
wanders from the left
and to the right,
always missing the sight
of this miracle
presented, and re presented
from the day of your birth.

And when will it be reconciled
that you,
the mystified and rectified,
denounce the villain that
beguiles your eyes,
and behold the beloved
buried within your sighs?

The fool,
half starved by longing,
is led like a dog on a rope
by the one 
who searches, 
who thinks he knows the way
down blind, lonely alley ways

Stop.
Return to the IN.
Sit at your heart's table 
and Drink 
your breath.
God awaits your tasting
in every drop.

I decided to make a transcript of a private session i did with a client in June. These kinds of channelings are normal for me when i’m doing a session with someone. I get similar messages to this often, although it’s always unique and specific to each individual and what they can relate to. I felt this would be useful for others to read, since it’s a 'human condition' shift that we are all initiating through. Often the grammar is wrong and it keeps changing from 'we' to ‘you’, and that’s because we are ALL. There is no separation and ’they’ speak to me, as me, and are me!! I hear angels and God and in this transcript I call that ‘Me’. Sometimes I ask questions of ‘Me’ and that’s where it says ’Tara’.... you’ll get it...

Tara: “ I dedicate this space to you (my client), for whatever you need for the highest good of you today, and for all beings everywhere, we’re all infinitely connected, we’re all one...

Channeling/Reading Begins

Tara: “For you it’s a decision from your personal power, the solar plexus.”

Me: “Welcome to the next place, if you want to. “

Tara: “What wants and needs to happen for you?

You know.

Feel into the response coming from your own body, breathe into it, like your walking through a door, you’re excepting, your opening, and ask yourself what needs to happen now, what wants to happen for you? It’s a choice, it’s a privilege.”

Me; “There’s no more work to do, if you wanted it to be that way.

There’s a reality shift, an environmental reality shift, you can keep outputting, into helping, and keep imparting your skills to other people.

Or, and, also, there’s you being completely enveloped, going into a new embryo, being enveloped , enwrapped, cocooned for your gestation in the next level of humanity, a new human, like the butterfly,

You can’t do both.”

Client: “Why not?”

Me: “Because there’s a lack of commitment in that.

You will experience a degree of  impatience and confusion and disillusionment with both places if you try to stand the middle being both.

See how it feels,

Drop in.”

Client: “Part of me’s afraid of losing who I am.”

Me: “Who are you that you’re afraid of losing?

Bring your hands to yourself and breathe into the part of you that feels afraid.”

Client: “It’s my security blanket!”

Me: “It’s that sense of individual power, and of powerlessness. What power will you have, what meaning will you have as an individual if your not running this program and being the you that you’ve trained yourself to be.”

Tara: “Feel and breathe.”

Client: “The other part of the fear is, because I can’t do both, does that mean I leave this body now, and I can’t stay here and I can’t do the work I’ve been doing?”

Me: “It doesn’t mean you leave this body. It means the body undergoes changes that you’ve been pre-prepared for. From the angels and energy of absolute love, it’s really beautiful.

You have been pre-loved, you have been pre-conceived, you have been pre-prepared, you come packaged ready, all of your cells are on the edge of readiness. Like your DNA is prepped, to birth, as if you’ve always known yourself to be a bud, and now the bud has to bloom.  What you’ll lose is your sense of self identity as you’ve related to it, as we perceive the world, and all the meaning and attachment that we have to the world, and how we ordered it up here ( head) to gain a sense of power, place, and understanding, All of that can be collapsed in a an instant.

That whole paradigm can be collapsed in an instant, like when you tap in EFT, you know that, you can collapse the program. The creator is saying that this paradigm that we have ordered, and think we belong to and have an sense of identity in, can be collapsed at any moment, and there’s a plan to collapse it!

We as souls knew that plan and this was the ultimate promise to us. That we would come, that we would endure that we would strive, that we would impart something, that we would weave this new paradigm, DNA, Energy into this existing paradigm where people had forgotten, where unconsciousness was pertaining. We came to weave that in. It’s like when you sew a stitch in and you pull the thread and then you take the next stitch. It’s like this. To literally pull that thread through, that we brought in, through that reality, sew it up and then we go on to the next reality. This is not our stopping station. People have got stuck here, thinking that it is and there’s nothing  beyond it, like we’re stuck in a big glass bowl and we can’t  get out, and we have to keep recreating the same situations, the same problems, the same words, the same beliefs, the same archetypes, that’s why they’re called archetypes! Because we’re doing the same thing again and again and again, and God says “there’s a way out! Don’t you remember!?” This wasn’t the be all and end all plan, don’t you remember!? That’s what you’re here for. You Are my Love,  my love has no end. Keep running with me, don’t get stuck here, separating yourself and forgetting who you are, forgetting that you are me.”

And in that remembering, is there something in there for you? You’re encoded with your own personal message. From god. You’re own personal love note is written inside of you. And you’re being asked now, and I’m here as a catalyst for you, as a friend, to remind you that you’re being asked to go read your love letter, your inner love letter. Read the signs, read what you already know, that’s placed inside of you, and then there is no choice. There just IS. That transcendence, that movement, that pure bliss, tangible bliss.

The foetus must stop struggling in the water, like the little baby in the womb kicking the feet! Stop struggling. It’s time to choose, but the time will come anyway. You can do it now, or you can do it in death. You’re job is done, you came to do here what you said that you would do, you have accomplished your greatest achievement, and any frustrations that you have, of feeling like  you’re not having enough, or doing enough, is you not recognising, as you’re still focusing out there, and you not recognising and turning in,  what you know in your heart you have already achieved.”

Client: “It feels like I’m being invited home”

Me: “You are. You’ve never actually left home. You’ve always been completely held. Even though you’ve always felt that you were living in a  fish bowl and you were the only one there because you couldn’t see out of the fish bowl, everyone’s been looking in.  You have never, ever, ever been alone. You have never been alone.  And that love and grace, that home that you remember was always surrounding you. Even if you thought you had no home and you were lost. In that fish bow life.

Keep allowing your breath. Your breath is going to keep you in the moment. That’s the truth.

Speak to your own soul.

What does the highest truth of you have to say, if you could really accept that?

Is there death in there? Is there something to be afraid of? Do you feel like you’ll die if you make that choice? Can you feel what will happen to your body?”

Client: “I’ll finally relax and feel safe”

Me: “Your body is not your own anyway. You have to give it back sooner or later, but let us remodel it for you. Let us give you the upgrade. That energy that you want, that energy that you require, that you’re missing, feels like its slipping away from you, feels like it’s slipping through your fingers like sand, that youth, that invigorated, excited feeling of being alive, that wants to be re-instated beyond age. Age is old-paradigm (I’m going to keep using that word because it’s the word that best fits) and it’s not the truth of you.

You are an infinite being and an infinite creator of reality, and any time you so choose,  you can be remodelled and updated and enjoy that effervescent life force and create anew.”

Tara: “I wonder how, myself???”

Me: “You don’t have to worry about that part. It’s already pre-programmed, it’s pre-done. We’ve already created the program.  You couldn’t even begin to image how, with the consciousness that you currently have, it would burst the fuses, you would never conceive of it. But that’s what knowing is for, because knowing is beyond conceiving and believing. Knowing is infinite. So feel your knowing.

See if you could walk through the eye of the needle of your knowing. It’s not even something your being asked to do now.

We understand that there is preparation to be had, that there are things, almost like saying goodbye. Even though you’ve had a really traumatic time, even though it’s been a struggle and it’s been hard, that part of you that feels somehow comforted by the whole thing, like you’re comfort blanket that you’d be unwilling to give up because it feels like you’d have to give it up in blind faith. Even though you know you want it,  and you love it, and you pre-planned it, and you know it’s all true, there’s something about humanity that feels like, ‘Awwww, blesss, I know you’re a problem but I don’t want to leave you! I know you’re not perfect, I know it’s not easy’, part of me wants to do that and another art of me says  ‘oh hold on, one more cuddle, one more year,  one more something, one more experience of  icecream, one more experience of whatever it’s going to be’.

The angels are saying, we understand that.  But don’t get lost, don’t forget and keep going round that cycle again and again like that hamster.

You must make a choice because that paradigm will collapse. And we need all souls on board. But that’s not with pressure, that’s with absolute love, there’s no threat, there’s no pressure in that, just absolute love.  And you’re being reminded as a mother would remind a child. And come home. “

Client: “What’s coming up is it feels like I need to take the child with me. She’s stuck here in this bit that I’m hanging on to”

Me: “Through the eye of a needle. Passing into the mind of the infinite knowing is like passing through the eye of a needle.

What do you think that you an take with you? What do you think that is yours, that is real, that could pass through that portal, that gateway, that you think would be needed, that you think is relevant?

Check in, and ask, “Really?” “what is it that I think is so real that I couldn’t live with out? That I think I have to bring with me?”

Client: “My story, ha ha ha! “

Me: Are you afraid that your story will be lost in the sands of time, buried and forgotten in history, that it’ll turn into dust and be nothing?”

Client: “I was so identified with the story, I thought that’s who I am”

Me: “And we like to believe that that’s who we are, we’ve spent a whole life time building that. It’s like building a huge big tower your whole life, your so proud of it,  you admire it, yes it’s not perfect and you’re going to fault it and you’re going to keep wanting to redesign that faulty bit again and again and again and again, and you become obsessed with it. And what we’re saying is, “PUT THE BLOCK DOWN! AND WALK AWAY!”

Client: “Ha ha ha!”

Me: “And walk through another door, it’s become obsessive. The mind has become obsessive, that’s the nature of it. It’s like a capsule that you go in, It’s a simulator. It’s  a test experience. It’s a simulated reality. We’ve been watching, taking notes, and we’ve created something outside of that contained environment. We said it like a fish bow a moment ago and now we’re saying it like a simulator.  It’s a quarantined, controlled environment,  this mind reality that we believe we’ve been living in.  It exists only in our minds. All of this exists only in our minds, like a projection, like a simulated virtual reality machine. Now step out of the machine!

We’re going to shut this one down, this is so old school! We have the most incredible, updated, it’s not even a ‘new’ technology, it’s put that into practice. We’ve used this a s a test environment to create actual reality. Actual reality! You’ve forgotten what actual reality is! But you don’t really because you remember, it’s in your cells it’s in your dna, it’s in your knowledge banks. It’s opening to what you know and stepping into that reality which you cannot conceive with your mind because it’s infinite. It’s exponential. It’s like a fractal. Every movement you make, every ripple of our arm moves the stuff of reality. Something else. We’re completely interactive with the stuff of the universe. And we think this is interactive, when you pick up a cup, or touch something. It’s leaps and bounds ahead of that!

Tara:, I still can’t conceive it and I won’t believe it til I can conceive it!

Me: “It’s not possible, you have to step out of the simulator and go outside, it’s that difference, like being in a simulation looking at the TV screen thinking you’re in that reality, and then going outside and going OMG! Where’s the edge? There’s no edge!

Client: “Ha ha ha! Whoa!”

Me: “So you must be prepared, there’s this cocoon, time. There will be no disharmony, there will be no disruption. Disruption and disharmony is not in the program.  It’s not in reality;  it’s something, it’s part of your simulation experience.  Pain and suffering is part of that simulation experience, to eradicate the bugs so that it isn’t in this new world.

And all of history won’t be lost, like the sands of time, it’s written, meticulously, each and every story is a meticulous part of the construction of the whole story. And we/you couldn’t even begin to understand that now.  It’s like saying a thread in a tapestry is meaningless. Every single thread was needed to create that understanding, so that we could evolve, so that we could move on, so that we could also know that this isn’t who we are. That’s a vital part of that tapestry, and that’s the thread, the golden thread, that we’ve/you’ve woven into the tapestry.

And you must re-act, activate that golden thread because it transforms that tapestry into something of your wildest dreams.  Your wildest dream and way beyond that. So would you be willing to take that risk?!”

Client: ”Ha hahhahahh”

 Me: ”And follow”

Client: “Ha haha, well when you put it like that, I think I would!”

Me: “There’s so much compassion there. We understand. It’s like asking a child to move out of home and leave behind you toys and leave behind your favourite teddy bear. And even though the child’s not happy, there in that home, you’ve become so accustomed to it, you don’t know anything else. We understand, but just take our hand.  If it feels nice and it feels right, and even though you’re scared, breathe, allow our grace to dissolve the fear. When you feel the touch of our hands, when you feel our breath on your skin, when you feel that absolute love of your own self, your own angelic energy…. Your own angel resides with us,  your angel body, the one that you love and know of yourself, also lives with us

And she, your own angelic self, take the hand of your own angelic self, say ok I shall go from child to angelic child,

See how that feels…

This is something that you may spend the next year, doing and feeling,  writing about, having your own questions, there’s no conspiracy against you. There’s no thing conspiring in a vicious way, it just like a flower opening, petal by petal,  like that bud,. Feel the warmth of the sun like your breath, like the truth, like that angelic, knowing you.

And feel that and feel that and feel that, like sunbathing!

Let that open you. You won’t even realise what’s happening.

It’ll be like on Avatar when the guy gets into the capsule and falls asleep for 6 years and then he arrives on Pandora, and  while he’s a sleep, does he know he’s asleep for 6 years?

No, he’s dreaming.

You won’t even know you’ve just travelled a huge distance, metaphorically, because you’ll be in that nice state. The beyond you’re wildest dreams state.  That’s where we want you to be,

We’ve told you this and we promised this and that ‘beyond your wildest dreams’  state is your next ‘Becoming’

So bathe in that. Bathe in that as often as you like as often as you choose, Take deep rest in Your knowing. Get familiar with your knowing.  Get as familiar with your knowing as you’ve become with your traumatised child! With the one that struggles, with the one you’ve got great empathy and compassion for and don’t want to leave behind. Bring her to the gateway of that truth, to sunbathing in your remembering, your knowing. It will be instantaneous,  you won’t even know when you left one room (reality) and went into the next one. A state of transition, of non-dieing, of leaving the husk.

It’s like having a light bulb, and we think we’re the light bulb, and then the light bulb gets switched on. We become something else.

There’s no ‘leaving’  only what you think and conceive in your mind as being you. That’s it.

The angels are very pleased that you’ve heard that you’ve listened, that we met. They want to thank you, because you don’t see that ripple that goes out. When you touch one person and that goes out, it multiplies. You don’t see the enormity of your light that you beam into this being, that you communicate, reach out to others and touch, even with your fingers, that love and knowing  and trust inside of you. You’re constantly transmitting that energy to others. Through your awareness and through your touch.  Even though part of you doesn’t realise that because you think you’re doing something else, that’s what you are in fact doing.

  And therefore you hadn’t counted on that as happening automatically without it having been something that you were consciously doing, whilst adding your own fragrance, your colour, your essence, and you have not taken stock of the magnificence of that colour, of your decorating of the world, of what you’ve done to this environment. Acknowledge that, and yet it’s still in the simulator! It’s still simulation. And it’s beautiful. And see that that’s who you are, that essence that’s come out and touched and helped decorate the world, touched and coloured others, is you. Look at yourself in the mirror and realise the beauty and the grandeur of your own self., and it not being limited to this form, because what you put out is way bigger than this little form . Take stock of that and allow that to open the doors, accept, receive, let those doors fly open, let the handles fly off the doors and allow that growth from the inside. Acknowledge that with in yourself.  Have faith in your own knowledge.”

My client had a  question at the end about what happens to people who don’t know about this, or can’t let go and allow the changes.

The response was that there is a sort of ‘Angel hospital’ for those that don’t make the leap. In other words, a space where their perceived wounds and traumas of human life are gently restored with light, til they become like new borns, ready to be born again.

Which God do You Believe in?

Today I had a client for a Soul reading/healing that inspires me to write. In fact, every client inspires me, and what I’m writing about today is pretty much the same for every new client I have. One of the biggest common to all problems that people have is believing in themselves.

We have been conditionned to Believe in Other people, namely deities, guru’s, mother and father and any amount of spiritual entities, the most common being GOD.

When I read a person’s energy field, everything to their Right and the Right hand side of their body is the Masculine Energies, relating to their active, directional, inspirational and motivational energy, or masculine traits, how they perceieve and relate to the World and other men, their relationship with their Father and their relationship with God, or Great Spirit. So, however a person’s relationship with their Father is, or more importantly, was when you were a child, will be an exact mirror of their relationship with God.

The same goes for the Left and the left handside of their body, that's the Feminine Energy, passivity, creativity, nurturing, compassionate, receptive energies, or feminine traits. How they relate to their Mother, or women, and their sense of belonging and safety on Earth and ease in their body. Their relationship with the mother will determine their ability to be fully in their Body, or not.

Now, this may sound like a huge generalization. It is, but it’s also true. And as you sit there wondering and contemplating your parental relationships with the Divine Forces of Spirit and Earth, realise this. Most of your beliefs about God, Gaia and yourself are out of sight of your conscious mind. If we were all fully conscious there would be no problems! We would be fully Realized, or I like to spell it Real-Eyezed because we would be seeing and perceieving through our Real Eyes, the inner eye of Knowing.

But we don’t. We perceieve ourself, others and the environment about us with the same little eyes that we looked out of as children, as toddlers, as a new born. So our eyes become imprinted with images and preceptions before we can even begin to determine or rational-eyez with them. We also carry a whole storage container called the Sun-conscious mind which is full of memories from our ‘Past’, ie, what else we have seen through our eyes in other life-times or other parts of our Soul’s journey. The Sub-conscious is the software that our brain uses to relate information, informing our mind and interpreting the images that we see outside of ourselves using what’s already in the computer.

For instance, my client today had strong memories in her sub-conscious banks of fighting in the Crusades, wars fought in the name of God. She’s still fighting in the name of God, still on a mission. She had a relationship to her father where he was unobtainable, as if behind a large wall out of her reach. Her relationship with God was an unobtainable one, as if she could never reach Him and had to carry on fighting her mission until God gave her permission to stop. According to her Sub-conscious beliefs, one day the war and struggle in life would be over, she would have saved enough souls, earned enough brownie points with God and Ascend to Heaven as promised. She’s still living in the past, even though she’s a fully capable, intellegent, alternative and conscious kind of woman. She’s been doing The Work on herself for years in the area of personal development and healing, so she was amazed at how much she was still believing in this old History.

Abandoned by God

It’s so common! An outrageous amount of people are still placing all their hopes, dreams, fears and beliefs in an outmoded and ancient version of God. Their God is some kind of far away, judgemental being that we have to appease, be approved by and whom we pray to endlessly for help. That God that gave us a sacred mission to fulfill on Earth, that to a vast amount of people is proving impossible and uncompleted to this day. The God that demands we work harder. That God that we are waiting to be rescued by and finally be seen, held and cherished. That God that witholds our pleasures, or our desires, or witholds the big one, Love, in our lives til we get it right!

Your beliefs will not be immediately apparent to you, but take an honest look at your relationship with your Father and it will give you some clues. Wonder for a while about how you perceive the world and what you think you have to do, or accomplish to get by in it, to attain your own approval or sense of success. It will all relate to your God relationship. It will all stem from sub-conscious (watery, dream-like, vague) , or completely unconscious (forgotten, death-like, buried) beliefs in your mind.

Believe in God I Am

God is like the perennial Sun in the sky, always there above the clouds of doubt, above the storms of dellusion, there, even in our darkness. God exists. The all loving, omnipresent energy of Golden colour light exists. I see it near you every day, although not often directly above you, shining straight down upon your head and lighting up your life, your crown and anchoring you on the ground.

God exists as The Highest Expression of your Eternal Spirit Self. It is Your Great-Spirit. You and God are not seperate. You don’t have to reach out to find God, make offerings to the sky or sun to please God. If you are the open channel vessel you are designed to be, God enters you. The more grounded and landed and happy you are with your mortality, your physical, earthly body, not rejecting, denying or lessening any of it, accepting the Mother of you, the more your vessel can contain the light of Love and Truth that Wants to Fill you and Be You.

The light of Creation, The great I Am of all things, created us as children to Receive and Enjoy. I hear it all the time. God says, “You are MY greatest Wish, My greatest most beloved Child. Your will is my Command."

God seeks to be One with us. So if we’re OUT, ie not Home, here in our bodies, in our right mind, with open true perception to receieve WHAT IS, and free of past conditionning, then when God tries to call and enter into us, AS us, but there’s no answer! There’s no-one home. The doors are shut to the Love and Light. We’re out on our crusades, healing the planet, saving the souls, serving the masters, helping the poor, tending the sick etc etc.

And then we wonder in the quiet of the night why aren’t being healed, or why we feel like we need saving, or why life isn’t serving us back the way we want, or why we stay so poor, or why we feel so ill and sick and miserable and alone.

My God! Why we don’t believe in ourselves!?

Well, we need to. There’s a lot of conditionning to undo, granted. There’s a lot of B.S. (Belief Systems) to give back to history, to give up and relinquish and stop being addicted to.

Just come home and get comfy with yourself. Give yourself the adoration, the attention, the offerings, the prayers, the blessings and the BELIEF. Give yourself what you need and want and long for with asbolute love. Restore everything to it’s rightful owner and rightful order and the universe begins to flow your way again. Give away what you think you know and start listening to things that make sense and feel good.

Tell your old Gods that you’re sorry but you’ve had enough. Thank him/it for the great times you’ve had together and for the interesting experiences and move back HOME, into yourself. You may have quite a bit of cleaning out and re-arranging to do, since whilst you were away chasing All That You Already Are, other critters will probably have moved in!

And to those people who already know this and there’s nothing new here, I ask you this:

Who are you listening to? What’s the voice in your head that Guides you and Orders you around? What do you Obey?

And then look around and see if you’re getting the results you want in your life. See if that voice is working out for you, in your favour. Because it’s REALLY ridiculously easy to be in denial and not see it.

We’re all in the same boat at the end of the day. We’ve all lived through history and have EPIC stories and tales to tell of where we’ve been. It’s the stuff of Films and Fairy stories, archetypal and rich with blood, guts, gore and broken hearts! The Lack of God, the Divine Inspiration, the True Love, The Hero, was at the core of all those stories. And now it’s time to start afresh. Time to tell a new story. Time for history to be over and Time-less Joy and Ease to begin. The end of suffering, pain and struggle. It starts with each one of us. We are God, We are the Light, the Life and The Way. So command a new beginning and Believe in YOU.

I believe in you. 


And I’m feeling more I AM every day :)
With so much Love

Tara Love Perry

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